The Author’s Kingdom #21

The Author’s Kingdom is a series of articles, where the Author explains his perception of Heirs to the Kingdom. It is written to cover the festive season of Christmas 2016.

 

Closing the Circle

 

Today we sit on the edge of Christmas, and the end of another bi annual event for Heirs to the Kingdom.

This year has been a special experience, as I have shared a great many things with those of you who read my work, and from my point of view, it has been a wonderful and also inspiring time. I have looked back over the last thirty years of my own life, and brought back the memories of all those little moments that came together in a wonderful jigsaw, and created the Woodland Realm.

Heirs to the Kingdom has been a joy, if not at times a little pressured to create and write. This last month has indeed shown me something of myself that I do at times take for granted, and that is how I have sat alone here at my desk, and painstakingly created a work of great love. For to me it is, and I have thoroughly enjoyed doing it. As you know I have always stated I was reluctant to publish, it is true, I am very introverted at times and it was actually a very terrifying thing for me to do at the start. This last month of writing, has brought to mind all those little moments that reminded me of the loyalty and dedication of the small group who are the Heirs to the Kingdom fans. I remembered all those moments where I turned to wife whilst writing something and commented things such as, “Julie will hate me for writing this.” Or “Ian is going to love this bit.” And so on, but it does thrill me that this is being shared today with people who have gained a great amount of pleasure from it.

Heirs to the Kingdom is not a best seller, I doubt it ever will be, writing in today’s environment is hard, as over three million books a year are published, and the amount of people reading has fallen dramatically each year, I have to confess that it is something I do not quite understand, books have brought me so much pleasure in my life, and I am now reminded of a comment made on a radio interview I did David Grey, back in 2011.

I had commented on my love of mythology and how I was inspired by those tales, and decided to write a tale of my own based on something that inspired me as a young boy. He commented on how important it is that the line of storytellers is not broken, and how one day having done my bit, it may inspire another person to write, a so called passing of the baton as it were. That comment has always stayed with me, and I think it is the best way to consider the modern writer. Book purchases have fallen globally for many years as the market becomes more and more saturated, but one day, we may see a revival, and when that happens, new writers will take up the baton and continue onward. In many ways this is how I also see Heirs to the Kingdom, the heroes of yesteryear fell and in my story, the new heroes arose to lift up the baton and take the struggle forward into a new age. It is dare I say it, the way of the circle of life?

“2017 will see the final book of the series, but I will continue to add more to the websites and blogs, as I am quite sure I will not end completely, but I do want to walk with new characters, and even if only for a while, I shall let the Woodland Realm rest and develop alone. I will obviously continue to promote this tale, as I would like to increase the readership a little more, and as I write new material for other projects and work alongside new authors as I do in VCP, I will consider this work of the lives of my green loving dwellers back on the farm at Loxley, and look to see if it honestly can be expanded at some future point.

As the new year of 2017 begins, I have a lot of work to do, I have a stack of notes as usual, and I will be continuing to work on the last book. I would love to give a date for which it will be released, but alas the pressure to make this a bigger, faster more exciting book than all the other is phenomenal, and so I am going to take it page by page until it is complete. I will say that this month of looking back has inspired several new twists that I would love to include into the stack of notes I already have, and for now I will say that “The Ravens of Berengar” for that is the title I am set upon,  will take you back into the distant past, and open up a picture of how the darkness that has shrouded this story began. I am finally going to show you the entire history of the Dark One, which is a very interesting tale, and something I have already given you hints and clues about in the blog series I have presented you with this month. The story like all things has to go full circle, and so I shall start at the very beginning of that dark and suspicious circle, and bring right around it to the point we are at, and then the circle will finally close as the book reaches the final page.

It will be an adventure worth the wait, well I am hoping so. (Smiles) You will walk under the veil of darkness into a place of deep vile secrets, and you will also walk into the land of Florae and finally see how the Fae of Earth live, which will be two new realms you have not entered before. This is going to be a tough time for all sides, and I am sure you will be as excited to read it as I am to write it.

May you all have a wonderful season of festivities no matter what your faith or belief? May it be safe and peaceful, and may the cheer of the season bless you until we walk on a green path edged with flowers in the coming New Year.

Many thanks to all of you for your loyal support, it does mean everything.

My parting gift this season, is the only picture of this series, as I have deliberately kept these posts free of artwork, so for the time being I shall leave you now to consider the family tree of a certain group of well know Ravens.

May peace be with you all. RJM.

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Family tree depicting the House of Berengar from the books Heirs to the Kingdom by Robin John Morgan.

The Author’s Kingdom #13

The Author’s Kingdom is a series of articles, where the Author explains his perception of Heirs to the Kingdom. It is written to cover the festive season of Christmas 2016.

The Contradictions of Jett Amber

Before you begin to read, I will warn you of a spoiler alert if you have not yet read book seven. As much as I do not want to spoil the book, this particular part of the articles does contain some hints that may affect the reading. I have tried to keep everything as low key as possible, but sadly in this particular article some important points from Book Seven had to be referred to.

Today I will open up and examine one of the most popular characters of HTTK. I am going to look deeper into Jett, the cold ruthless sword wielding comedian. This is the girl who will attack with no fear or no mercy, and all before her will fall, she will laugh and scream with delight as she fights, and yet contrary to belief, if she sees her friends hurt, her tears will be the first to fall, and as you will soon see, there is a good reason for every aspect of Jett.

When I first began to create my characters for HTTK, I decided to use the names of minerals to not only name the characters, but also explain a little about who they were. This was mainly something I used as a support technique, because it meant as I created each character and began to write them into the story, their name also triggered their behaviour, and so by using this as a kind of code, it helped me remember what each character was like as I threaded them all in together to interact with each other. One character that was always going to be prominent was Jett Amber.

Jet: Seen as the stone of sorrow, but mixed with the properties of Amber, it can have the reverse effect.

Amber: Known to clear negativity, and for healing, soothing and harmonizing. Can exert a great positive influence.

So if you look above and see the main influences, you very quickly begin to see how I was able to take some of these qualities, and weave them into her character. The one thing we all know is that Jett is loud, she holds nothing back and her brash attempts to fit in create humour amongst the group, which on several occasions in the early books breaks the ice and lifts the spirits of the group.

One aspect that I always saw as very important was her bonding with Jade. It is very clear in the early books what a misfit Jade is, and as a result it is also the cause of a great deal of unseen loneliness. Jett proves to be the cure, and as the two build up a friendship, they become inseparable and together create all kinds of mischief. Jett without realising actually helps Jade adjust and find a voice, and as a result she becomes a very integrated and important part of the Specialists.

Even the effects of the Jet Stone, which can be seen as negative plays a positive role due to the fact it is linked with Amber. There is a dark side to Jett which in the early books is not seen often, one of the elements of that is her power. Sorrow can mean many things, and I deduced that it could also mean pain. Jett prefers to use her sword to fight, it is actually really important to the type of person she will become in later adult life, but she does have a gift like all of the other members of the circle, she just chooses to only use it as a very last resort. Jett can focus her mind to create internal pain, something I show in book two when she is trapped in an impossible situation pinned to a wall. The Cutter who feels he will take advantage of this, soon experiences tremendous pain in his head as Jett’s eyes turn a violent dark blue, the result for the Cutter is death by excruciating head pains. I saw it when writing as quite a dark and sinister power compared to those of the others, and felt it fitted in well with the meaning of the jet stone.

Back in 2008 I sat in my office one evening with Louis, who was at the time working on sketches for the covers of the first editions. I had just finished the first draft copy of ‘The Darkness of Dunnottar’ which oddly enough at that time was actually being written under the working title of Dark Rock of Dunnottar, I changed the title shortly before it was published. As we looked at the book and described the action, it became clear that the working partnership of Jett and Rafe greatly appealed to him, and we talked at great lengths about the story as it was then. It was during this conversation that I mentioned that Jett was actually a multi layered character with many hidden levels which would be revealed over the next few books, I tried not to give any spoilers, but I slowly over the period of an hour pulled apart her character and showed him the reasons for each and every aspect of her characteristics. I still remember that conversation with clarity as I think it really opened her up and made him see her in a completely different light.

On the surface Jett is loud and brash, and very flaky at times, but actually like many people in this world today, a lot of it is a mask she wears to hide her real self, and it is in this area I have been able to slowly reveal the great depths of her character. Possibly the most obvious elements of this was in the chapter the “Coming of Queens” in Book Five.

During Dunnottar I showed a little bit of her vulnerability when she saw the people being brutalised by the guards and she reacted by attacking them with her gift. It was an action that alerted the Dark One to the presence of the Specialists, and had it not been for the swift action of Sinclair, they all would have been caught. Later she weeps and gives an apology, but the root of her pain and anger at the guards, was at that point she was starting to see her companions as family. In the Coming of Queens, I used a memory playing in her head, as she faced one of her most difficult opponents in the form of the brutal Ivor Walter’s.

During the fight Jett weakens under the powerful blows from Ivor, and it is at this point we get to see the childhood of Jett in the form of one of her memories. From this we discover that she has dance lessons as a small child, but whereas most parents would do this to provide fun and entertainment for their child, Scarlett has an ulterior motive. Dance teaches balance, and the more balanced Jett is, the better she is able to wield her sword in combat. As the voice of her mother talks in the back of her mind from the past, we get to hear her mother scalding her, and telling her to get up and do it again. I think at this point it becomes obvious that for Jett, childhood was more of a training camp that a fun experience. Her childhood was one long rehearsal for later life as Scarlett, a warrior queen herself, trained her eldest daughter to be even better than she was. Scarlett is incredibly competitive; we see this in small things like the meals she serves at the castle in Caerleon. Jett quips at the table, “This is just mum showing off, we will have toast tomorrow.” Losing is not an option for Scarlett, and through her endless training of her daughter, we start to see how this has been ingrained into Jett almost like a mantra. The result is exactly as Scarlett would have planned, Jett rises up and allows her training to kick in, and as a result she finds the skills and power to defeat Walters.

Once we start to fully understand her childhood, we begun to understand Jett more. Her life from almost day one was strict and controlled by her mother, her freedoms were very limited, and I think it is a direct result of her mother’s controlling nature, that breeds into Jett the rebellious instincts that become her most popular attributes for mischief. Jett learned very early to fight her mother with rebellion, and this to some degree shows the inner strength she has. I think it is very clear, she has no intention of becoming her mother, and from that appears her only real defence, she appears uncompliant. The ants in the cooks knickers, the attacks on Harry, her wild sexual deviance are all things her mother disapproves of, as they are not the sort of things that a warrior queen should be doing, this is Jett’s fight back to established her own identity and avoid the trap of being seen as cold and as calculating as her mother is.

Another telling aspect of Jett is her loyalty and protection of her little sister Ruby. It is here we start to see how much Jett values family, her sister means everything, and even though they are separated as Jett is constantly in training sessions, it is evident that for most of their childhood, Jett when free devoted her time to Ruby. The loss of Ruby is very difficult, we see that Jett struggles to let go, a moment shown here is when Robbie arrives at the graves to find Jett weeping for her sister. Even in front of her grave, and confronted with the facts that Ruby is gone, Jett cannot let go and still feels that Ruby is out there somewhere, something book Seven reveals the truth of, and here again we see that absolute dedication to her sister and her memory that plays a huge role in her loss at the bridge of the Mirrored Waters. It is clear as she defends Runestone (Who she also regards like a sister) and is cast towards her death in the Mirrored Lake, that her will power interferes with the powers of those trying to save her, and as a result she is cast beyond the reach of everyone into a land she should never have been able to access. This action as described by Tula, is something that should have thrown out the balance of all the realms, and yet for Jett it does not, which again is a direct result of her ability to create stability as her name implies. After a whole year in Maybean she finally is recovered, and yet that year to her is only a few weeks back in her home realm, but the changes within her are there to clearly see when she returns.

Book seven is a definitive turning point for Jett, here we see her confront Robbie openly for the first time. It’s almost a challenge to his leadership, and to be honest it is not done with malice, but it is clear to everyone as she turns on him and snaps back at him “Don’t you dare.” And “I am the queen of Caerleon.” It is a very important moment of clarity for everyone, but more so for Jett. Here is the moment when you finally see that in her year away she has had a lot of time to actually think over her life. In one way, it is almost as if she has given in to her mother’s wishes and has stepped right into her mother’s shoes, but we are talking of the qualities of Jet and Amber, and this is the contradiction that truly shows the hidden depths within the character. You see from my point of view it does not matter so much that her entire life has been combat training to become a warrior queen, the really important aspect her is the influence of Ruby. Through Ruby her younger sister Jett experienced love and compassion, she saw the true value to the protection of the weak, and in many ways these have had a much more profound effect on her. The love she holds deep inside for her sister sway the balance away from the cold ruthlessness she was trained in, into a more caring and affectionate person, and that as far as I see it is the defining quality that makes Jett the truly gifted and loveable character she is.

There is no doubt in my mind she will one day rule Caerleon as the queen with great authority, but because of Ruby, she will also rule with great humanity, and that makes her a very different ruler compared to her mother’s reign. Jett will probably be a much better ruler, as she will combine all the qualities of her inner self. I think I can clearly say that even though at this point I have not mapped out her future, if I do decide that she becomes a parent, I would say her approach to teaching her children will be very different from her mother’s.

There is no doubt in my mind that Scarlett loved her children, but her competitive edge and drive to prove herself as the supreme fighter who had no understanding of losing was indeed her greatest flaw, or was it? It was her drive and education that she instilled on her children that actually allowed them to find a way to revolt, and in doing so, it added a stronger and more determined if not at times softer edge to her children, and so in a way, it brought out the finer qualities of Jett and Ruby, so maybe in a weird way, it was for the better.

Jett Amber is an amazingly deep and complex character, but you have to peel away the layers to fully see and understand it, it is an aspect of the way I write that maybe my geeky side shows more than I realised. I have placed many layers within all the characters simply because to me it is a part of the natural process, due mainly to the fact that I grew up at a time where writers were deeply invested in ensuring their books could if examined deep enough reveal more than just the story.

What I have put above is just the tip of the iceberg, dig deep enough and you will be able to read far more into her character than you first realise. On the surface Jett is great fun and very bubbly, she is full of mischief and tricks and has a love of using sexual innuendo to gain an advantage by embarrassing those she deals with. But scratch at the surface and soon you will see the full depths to a girl who can lift a sword and dance like a ballerina with devastating results. In book seven Rowan comments that yes she can be flaky at times, but she is never complacent, it is without doubt a definitive explanation of her, and it also shows how deeply Rowan understands her. I am sure if you have read this and return to the books, you will start to see the qualities of her name start to show more in each of her interactions, and it is my hope that by doing so, you will enjoy her moments within the pages far more, or you can just take her as she comes and giggle at her loud and brash ways and her mischief, either way, the books are there to be enjoyed, and so I wish you well and hope I have helped to make HTTK a little more fun for you.

 

The Author’s Kingdom #1

The Author’s Kingdom is a series of articles, where the Author explains his perception of Heirs to the Kingdom. It is written to cover the festive season of Christmas 2016.

Creating Loxley and the Woodland Realm.

For those of you who do not know me, the woodland of the UK is a precious and very important place in my life. From the age of five I have had the luxury of being able to slip over the fence and walk in amongst the trees, and it is a place to which I hold great affinity. For me personally the tree is massively important, I see it as the symbol of life itself and the true form to which I identify the natural world.

When I first began to write Heirs to the Kingdom I was told not to title the first book “The Bowman of Loxley,” because people would think it was just another Robin Hood story, which for those of you who have read it, you know it most certainly is not.

This story is indeed inspired by a few of my favourite stories from childhood, firstly my love of King Arthur and Merlin, combined with the tales of Robin Hood, but more than that is also my love of books such as Treasure Island, Robinson Crusoe  and the Swiss Family Robinson. All of these books at an early age inspired me so much; they left a mark on me that even to this day has never left me. As I passed into my teenage days, I was captivated by books like Day of the Triffids, and the Crysalids, War of the Worlds and the Three Musketeers. I guess I got hooked on post-apocalyptic tales and anything that had great comradery as well as survival topics. 

I still love all things that involve living an alternative life within nature, going off grid, and leaving the modern world behind me. I find the modern world at times to be quite tiresome. I see it as a world that values possession’s and money more than humanity and compassion, and with the addition of social media, it does feel at times like all people want these days is to be validated for actually doing very little, I mean let’s be honest, posting 1000 selfies is hardly an achievement. I cannot deny there have been moments when I have sat and watched the world and thought maybe mankind should end tomorrow before we ruin everything on this planet, or just feel the urge to build a tree house and go live alone in the woodland, where I would be surprisingly happy alone.

Of course that then leads me into thinking about what would happen if a massive disaster wiped most of us out, could modern people honestly survive, have we salvaged enough of the arts and crafts skills and growing techniques of the past to really make it?  It was at moments of thought like this in my youth that I began to play out different scenarios in my head. It is actually a brilliant topic of thought, and with some time you can really look at a million different combinations of how life after destruction would look, and Kingdom is just one of many.

Add to that the end of one of my favourite books, King Arthur, which clearly states he will return one day to save us all, which has been a popular theme throughout all the mythology of history, and you can pretty much see where HTTK began. My ponderings of all the above were eventually going to splice at some point, which was actually around the early 1980’s.

When I first began to look at how I would set up the world I have now created, I hadn’t really decided on what had actually caused the end of modern mankind. I started at the heart of all of things and so selected a farm, as I knew the remote location and ability to produce food would be vastly important. It was also clear to me just by looking at modern news broadcasts, if we ever really do have a massive disaster on this planet, cities would be the last place you would want to be. I know from my horticultural experience that most crops are sown between January and March depending on which crops they are, and so it was clear to me to have any chance of making this plausible, the tragic event whatever it would become, had to take place from April onwards.

So I had a farm and with a little research, I found some old records from Loxley on the border of Derbyshire and Yorkshire, which showed that in the 1600’s an archaeological dig unearthed 14 dwellings which were close together and dated back to the Early Medieval period. The lord of the time who conducted the dig, said he had found evidence that this was the actual home of Robert of Barnsdale, the young son of a local who shot his neighbour’s dog, for killing some of his sheep with a long bow. He was fined a penny by the Barnsdale Magistrate, but did not pay it as he absconded into the large bordering Sherwood Forest and was branded an outlaw. Old maps show that Sherwood Forest was much larger than it is today, in fact not only did it cover most of Nottingham; it spread across a great deal of Derbyshire as well. The whole area of Barnsdale was in later days divided into small hamlets, of which the one in that area was named Loxley as it still is today. It was perfect, and so now I had a farm and 14 houses to build my story around, and from that point on with more research and a lot of creative license, I created what the readers now know to be the Stockade.

I started initially with a family tree; I put the head of the Lox household Jake at the top, added his wife, and then began to work on his three sons and their family. Jake was the land owner, and the eldest son had to be the parent of Robbie, who at that point in my mind was still a very young boy. That gave me the occupants of the farm, which was a big operation, so then I added a few staff, of which Ann Kirk and Agatha Patterdale both worked for Jake and lived in two of the 14 houses, later this was to change and they became business owners and tenants of Jake. Alf Smith came next, followed by the Appleton family, and slowly the circle of people expanded, at which point I came up with my reason for the introduction of Runestone, via her mother moving in and setting up Trinkets and Trousers, the shop that sold jewellery and clothing.

I wrote the part of the meeting between Robbie and Runestone at her gate in the very early days, but it wasn’t until I started the fifth book I decided to dig out the very small piece I had noted down in the early 1980’s and give it a full make over to update it to fit better within what had become the evolving storyline.

The actual idea of the Stockade came in 2005, not long before I began the massive task of arranging all the notes which would come a year later. It occurred to me that at some point Robbie would need to be pushed into the limelight, and even though all my notes to that point had him as a 12 year old and Runestone as a 11 year old, I knew to make the story have a more believable factor, it had to have a lead character that could actually take the people forward. It was at this time, I decided Jake had to leave the story and make way for his son Robert, who would eventually pass the title on to his heir, so story the evolved behind the scenes with the death of old Jake Lox and Robbie aged to almost 18 years of age literally overnight.

It made sense that if the country was falling apart and you had a large property filled with fields of food, you would be open to raids from those of a more violent nature, and so Jake being a smart man, began to erect a wall from the vast forests of pine and fir that surrounded him. I was clear it would be hard and gruelling work, and it was obvious to me that a man like Jake would offer to support others around him. Having lived there all his life, he would be well known in the area, and I thought he would be the type of man to gather those in need together on his property to protect them, but also he would need the extra help. So by the time he began his wall of tree trunks, there would have been no shortage of willing hands. All this was carefully worked into the background via small short stories, which eventually lead to the accident with Jake that ultimately caused his demise. Even though I was creating this story, I pretty much used Heirs to the Kingdom as a working title, and so I was always aware this would be a tale that slowly reduced the cast to those final few remaining heirs. I suppose in one way, I always considered the point that once  I reached those final few, I could then create another continuing tale of those who came later, although I will say at this point, this is not something I have worked on to date.

As I planned and day dreamed in my spare time, I found myself really getting into the idea of setting up my own farm commune, it was a powerful idea that really inspired me. I laugh a little as I think back now, I worked in horticulture at a large Garden Centre at the time, and there were many hours of long laborious tasks to do, especially in early spring. On all those times alone in a greenhouse I would let my mind wander as I pricked out seedlings or potted hundreds of plants up, it was some of my happiest times alone in the greenhouse’s working on planting up hanging baskets or lining out the floors with thousands of fresh new seedlings. It was the kind of work where you just got on with it, because the routine was such that you worked on auto pilot, and that was wonderful as it allowed my thoughts to wander. Every night I made notes in a scruffy old pad, and in many ways this was just a way to distract my constantly busy mind as this imaginary village set on the moors got more and more elaborate. I can honestly say, I never once considered what I was doing, it was just a way to control the endless internal dialogue of my busy mind, and it was never meant to be published.

In April 1993, I got the flu. I had watched how we had lost members of staff at work to sick leave, and had just taken up the slack with the other members of our team to cope, but this flu was pretty different and we struggled for a few weeks with low staff numbers that left me exhausted. One Sunday night after a long day and feeling really tired, I prepared for work and then went to bed. To my surprise I woke up on Wednesday morning feeling really rough. My partner at the time told me of how I turned almost white as I burned with a fever for two days, and she was greatly relieved to see me awake, even if I was coughing and sneezing like a mad man. Once recovered and back in work, I was amazed at how I had slept for two days without even being aware of it, I understood that this flu had just hit me out of nowhere, and I think that was the moment when I realised how susceptible we are to virus infections. It was during the months that followed that I began to read of the great flu epidemic that wiped out millions, and I understood I had found my way to explain how Loxley had become such an isolated place. This was the time when the Red Death entered my thoughts, just as always I took fact and blended it with a little fiction, and then worked out the stages at which the virus would spread and incubate to create a scenario that could be applied to my now fast growing village of people and notes. The picture was beginning to widen as my virus swept across the country and finally I had a great backdrop for my small community. Possibly the oddest thing was when I did eventually start to write HTTK, the Red Death was just a loose definition even though I had a good amount of notes on it. The detail came later and was included at the start of book five, and written from the point of view of looking back at the events of that time.

I am not sure where twenty twelve really came from; I know I wrote it on my file in 1989 in red marker pen. It could have been something I read, I really do not know, but for some unexplained reason that was a date fixed in my mind, and I never really felt a need to change it, as this was not something I had ever thought of publishing. Parts of my notes were extensive family trees with dates, that went right back to the times of King Arthur, I literally listed ever fictitious member of the family and who they married and who their children were, I giggle now when I look at it and think “How Obsessed was I back then?” The time line it provides has been an incredible tool as I wrote through the series of books, so even though I think of myself at times as being quite bonkers, it has served me very well, and is the most used tool in my note stack. Shortly after I published the first version of HTTK I realised it was 2009, and only three years short of the actual fictional event. I think with hindsight maybe I should have changed it, the problem was once I started working on the story, the task of changing the time line and then changing the manuscripts to fit the amended dates was simply too mammoth to carry out, and so it has remained as originally written.

With a reason for world change, a good community growing daily, and my lead characters aged and in place with a fictitious history behind them from distant mythical tales, I had most of my imaginary world in place. Between 2000 and 2005 I spent a lot of time filling in gaps, I looked at the world through slightly destructive eyes, as I pulled it apart to see what would last and what would fall. I hit the books and studied the growth rates of plants, the destructive powers of earthquakes, how the weather could bring damage and chaos, and I devoured books on plagues, Virus’s, HIV, Mad Cows disease, Chicken Flu etc.. I am sure my local library saw me as some wild villain looking to kill off the planet.

I added religion in the form of a slightly altered and updated Pagan based faith, I looked into alternative energy, natural fuels, and ancient weapons, and as I learned more, I pencilled it in between the lines. By 2006 I had a huge mountain of notes all scribbled on pads and crammed into my old metal filing cabinet, it was a mess, and so I decided that I would finally start to sort it all out.

Before Christmas of 2005 I bought a second hand computer, it was a little old and needed a good cleaning out, but it worked and had a word processor which was all I really wanted. After a few updates and a more advanced copy of Windows installing, it was ready to use. On New Year’s Day I switched on the computer and opened the top draw of the filing cabinet and began to type up all the hand written notes creating files to store them in as I went. It took almost a year to actually type it all up and file it where I could find it quickly, it did not help that once I began, I also started to make more additions as the process was very creative and the size of the task doubled. Eventually the task was done, my battered and slightly out of date computer became my first real vehicle for writing properly, and although I typed with only two fingers at the time, I rapidly became a very fast and efficient typist, something that has not changed much today, as I rarely use more than three fingers. Even though I have since added a more up to date desktop and laptop computers for editing on to more advanced and up to date programs, that first computer became my only writing computer for HTTK, sadly I got the first six and half of book seven out of it before it burned out in 2014, but it served me very well, and in honour of my wonderfully battered PC, I replaced it with a second hand computer, just to keep that familiar feel. I very much like the idea of using old technology for writing this story on, and I have always felt that somewhere in Harry’s shed is and old PC just waiting for him to find it and tinker with it to get it going again, and maybe one day, Blades will use it to write her side of the story of what it was like growing up with Mad Harry as her father, and becoming the first new recruit of the Specialists.

Finally with the task completed which also involved many small back stories from the past, I had enough material to seriously start. What had begun as a day dream was now a whole race of woodland dwelling people, who lived a sustainable life on the land, and worked hard to survive in peace. I had the Stockade protected by the land owner, the food, the salvaged technology to assist and a whole bag of interesting character profiles to introduce into the story as and when I needed them. The woodland Realm had finally taken on its true shape.

In May 2007 with a computer filled with neatly ordered notes, I began to write, “Loxley is a town set deep in the wild moor,” and I was off… Above my desk was a map of my Loxley, a family tree that spanned four feet by three feet, and in my mind was a picture of snow on a farm house that had a huge industrial greenhouse set away from the back door. Beside it was a barn that rang to the sound of steel, and in the distance behind the now bare rows of apple trees, you could just make out the distant silhouette of a tall wooden wall. Behind me was the long driveway that lead to the hawthorn clad lane, and that took you through the crisp white snow to the cold empty street of fourteen houses, where only a few occupants had risen to start the cold wintery day. Years of scribbling notes, and filing suddenly came alive as I took the best part of twenty years’ worth of work, and just as Eve did so long ago, I breathed life into it, and set it free to grow and evolve. This was going to be my kingdom and a world I would love to walk in.

It felt like an extraordinary feeling as I wrote. I combined all those wonderful moments of my childhood alone in the woodland, and every little dirt path I ran along became a road in my story, all the hidden paths I knew between the trees became the routes taken by my Specialists. The steep embankments I struggled up were the same ones my hero climbed to hunt or look out across the now deserted tree filled landscape, and all those trees I loved to climb, which are still some of my all-time favourite trees, became the prominent trees of my story. Each and every step my characters took, I could see as clear as watching video in my mind, and it all became the foundation on which I would build a story.

It probably sounds quite selfish, but at the time it was my story, I guarded it and kept it to myself, literally no other living soul knew about it, not even my parents. It was precious and special and just for me, and at that time I had absolutely no intention at all of sharing it. That was to come a little later when quite by accident I mentioned I had written something to an employee, but that is not a tale for here, the result is now known, I eventually submitted under pressure to share it, and as a result and after a lot of convincing, reluctantly I published it.

From my own point of view, I have not really considered what being a writer really is, I suppose it is something that I have naturally fallen into. I look at the world today and see the wealth of writers that are around, and whereas I use to see them as these untouchable people, I think I now understand that like myself they too have this internal desire to express the chaos of their minds in a written form. There is a deep satisfaction in the process of starting from scratch, and then slowly layering together all the facts and building up a world that even though is make believe, its feels as realistic as the one we live in. I have given many hours to the kingdom and it has proven to be one of the most rewarding experiences of my life, especially considering that today others may walk within it. There is no doubt that isolation plays a big role in writing, and also I think putting yourself in any form in front of the world can breed some insecurity, and yet I think finally after ten years of none stop work I can say it has all been worthwhile.

Over the following articles I will start to pull apart my word and show you some of the deeper aspects of it, and I hope that again for you as a reader of this work, it will provide yet deeper illumination.

Truce for Christmas.

This is a very special time of year for families, it matters not what your faith may be, because a vast part of the world has been swept into the hustle that is Christmas. For many it is a time of peace and quiet, as the shops close and most of the countries take a pause, to allow those of faith to celebrate their own unique customs and rituals that represent their own ideas of family and their celebration of it.

It is a time I think, most of us consider as a time of peace and goodwill to all, and so it is very unlikely that many of us would be thinking of war. Sadly today there are parts of the world caught in conflict, and even though many of those involved will be placed somewhere on guard and watching, far away from their loved ones, in the backs of the minds of those individuals, there may be doubts as to why on this time more than most, men would want to fight and kill each other.

I am very much opposed to war, as those of you who know me will agree, it is a belief that runs deep within me that most ordinary simple men do not want to leave home and have to kill others. Many feel the pressures and are forced into enlisting, a great many feel a sense of duty, but if you were to ask them all how they feel deep down inside, I think you would find that they simply would much rather find a better way to resolve the conflicts they have been caught up in.

This year more than any other, I find it to be a poignant fact, as we celebrate an event that is 100 years old and highlights my point perfectly. I refer to the celebrated Christmas Truce of 1914, where enemies for a short while walked out onto the battlefield, and stood as the men they truly were, and wished each other Merry Christmas.

 

Christmas Truce 1914

Soldiers meet in a temporary peace for Christmas

It is a fact of history that the Pope had called out on December 7th 1914 for there to be a ceasefire, but those in charge on all sides of the war refused to make any form of official agreement, and they ordered the troops to stay alert and be combat ready. I love the fact that all along those cold miserable front lines of France, groups of both German and English soldiers defied their officials as they sang carols and hymns across the no mans land together, and eventually walked unarmed out onto the battlefield where they stood face to face, and wished each other Merry Christmas.

It stands I feel, as testament to the character of ordinary men, and reinforces my view that there is always another way to resolve a conflict, as long as the simple man makes a stand for what is morally the right thing to do. War is never about ordinary people, they are just the casualties that become swept up into the conflict, war is about the greed and lust for power of the individual, who drives that power to force an issue and embroils the others around them.

There are many cases in history that show us that there were men on all sides who took a stand against those who ruled them, but I don’t think the message here can be given a greater significance, than the simple act of those simple soldiers 100 years ago. Mankind has come so far in this world, and yet we still stumble and fall into conflicts that kill, maim, and wound men, women, and children across the planet. Most people shy away from doing something about it, they fear the system and so remain silent, so maybe it is the time to stand up and use the one weapon we all have and use it, and that is simply our voice. Speak out against the wars and injustice, and think more about peaceful solutions, and then voice those thoughts to others. Time and time again it has been proven that when we all speak up with one clear voice, those who lead eventually listen, and maybe 100 years after such an act of peace and goodwill, we too should take a stand as simple ordinary people, and say with a loud clear voice enough is enough.

World war one and two wiped out a generation of young men, and killed countless women and children, because as we know, regardless of what NATO or the UN may say, civilians die in vast numbers in all combat situations, as they get caught in the middle, just look at the media of 2014 and it clearly shows the despair created from the loss of loved ones.

The human race has the intelligence and the technology to wipe out poverty and world hunger, we have the capabilities to provide everyone with a home and a stable lifestyle, and yet even though today many will remember the unofficial truce of 1914, sadly despite all our advances, as humans we have learned little. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could learn from one hundred years ago today, and decide that from now on, the best way to honour those soldiers who as enemies, met and wished each a Merry Christmas, would be to do likewise? There is far too much hate in the world and it is bringing the world down, maybe we should learn and sit with our enemies and try for once to find a peaceful solution. Tolerance should walk beside us, and a smile should be our greeting, not bayonets or bullets.

Whatever your faith may be, and wherever you are on this planet today, I wish you a time of peace and safety, beyond today and into the coming New Year. RJM.

Soldiers meet on the battle field in France 1914

Soldiers meet on the battle field in France 1914

The Eleventh Hour. (100 years on)

Posted at 11am: 11th November 2014: 100 years after the end of World War One

 

11 hour of the 11th day of the 11th month. we will remember them.

11 hour of the 11th day of the 11th month. we will remember them.

On the eleventh hour of the eleventh day, of the eleventh month we will remember them. It is a saying that has resounded deeply within me for all of my life, and it is a good thing, because that one simple line carries the hopes and dreams of every man, woman, and child that lost their lives as part of one of the many conflicts that has scarred the life of mankind.

Today once again we mark the moment of the ending of World War One, later named the “Great War” and we stand together in silence as we remember that horrendous event that took the lives of so many of our young, and we remember them, and every life lost in conflicts around the globe since.

Think about that… Every life lost around the globe in conflicts since

Today it is 2014, exactly 100 years since the first world war. A war that witnessed the scenes of carnage and slaughter on a scale unprecedented in the modern era. Whole towns of our youngest stood together terrified and in many cases unable to talk or move, as they waited for the whistles that would take them over the walls of the trenches into a landscape of terror and carnage no one person should ever have to witness, to be cut down and trampled into the mud within the first one hundred yards of their defensive line.

They died for us… yes you sat reading this on your computer, phone or tablet. They believed in honour, they understood respect, and more than anything else, they alone made a choice based on their belief that we all should be given the right to be free. I often wonder as they felt the cold grip of death touch them, if they felt that the sacrifice they made felt like it was worth it?

Do you think as they lay there covered in blood dying in the mud, as the world around them screamed with the fear and the explosions of that moment of horror, they were comforted to know that the world that came after would be a better place, where man had learned enough to ensure something so terrible would never happen again?

I have taken part in many remembrance events in my life; I stood silently watching the faces of those old soldiers who carry that same haunted expression as the bugle sounds. I have witnessed the tears, as the memory of those times returns, and those individual moments of lost friends and heartbreak return again to the minds of those men who came back from war, forever changed, after seeing the horrors of combat. Ask any of them stood there proud that they played a part in something which was supposed to build a better world, if they want more conflicts in the world, I have, and I have never met any that want another world war, or war of any kind, what they want is for their sacrifice to have meant something.

The fact that there was a second world war, a Korean war, a Vietnam, or any of the many that has followed must feel like the biggest smack in the face to them, because they all agree on one single thing, they wanted their war to be the last.

I have never met a single parent who wants their children to die, and yet today we are still sending our young sons to face an enemy chosen by our governments, I cannot help but feel we have learned nothing in 100 years. We gather once a year and tell our young to wear the poppy of pride, and shed a tear for those who have fallen, and yet the list of those who die for us grows ever longer, it feels insulting to those who gave up everything, and has started to feel more like a pageant, than what it should be, a true and honest mark of respect, for the sacrifice those brave young men have made for our sakes. It should stand for more than just the assembly of officials with their political motivations, who gather around a stone monument and lay a wreath before it, in a routine show of mock gratitude, because until our leaders chose to walk the path of peace, their actions are false, and I feel strongly they disgrace the sacrifice made by those brave few.

We have learned nothing… our leaders have chosen ambition and capital gains above everything, and our freedoms as people have been slowly subverted. We do not live in a changed world, we are still surrounded by conflict, and where we do not fight, we sell our arms to the highest bidder. We arm factions and call them friends, who later become our enemies, and then we arm another faction to kill them and call them friend, only to once again label them enemy at a later date. We praise the capital we raise and spend yet more to create more aggressive weapons, and all the while those who died to create a better world lie silently sleeping unaware that to the leaders of this world, their sacrifice taught them nothing… its disgraceful and disrespectful.

In the UK today we have a government with debuts, who blame the benefit culture of the previous government for the woes of this land. We sneer at those who live on handouts from the state, yet no one mentions the debts we have piled up to create more weapons and troops to fight in Iraq or Afghanistan, wars that costs us millions every hour and have done so for the last decade. There is no coincidence that the rich sit quietly enjoying the profits of a campaign that brings in oil revenues and fat cheques from trade in those lands. We blame the poor, we let them suffer, and poverty is a crime in the UK.

We must honour the fallen; reintroduce the concept of respect, for it has dwindled greatly since 1914. If we cannot learn from them, we are doomed to a world of yet more pain and suffering, where parents bury their young, and are marked by grief for the rest of their lives. Those who survived are less in number every year, and soon there will be a time where we no longer have them amongst us, and so we should act now and tell those in charge that enough is enough, take the money of war and build a better land, where those fallen hero’s see the dreams and hopes they carried with their rifles into war are cherished and brought to fruition.

They came from a time where life had value, we need to turn back the clock and remember theirs, and hand back the value it held for them, for they gave it freely and it meant something.

And with the going down of the sun, we must remember them.

The Cemetery of the lost in France.

The Cemetery of the lost in France.

 

 

A Generational Thing.

It’s an odd feeling when you realise you are the last of a generation, and those who have followed on behind you, will never quite understand the world you lived in. I was reminded of this recently whilst out shopping with my son who is 8 years old, when I spotted a large clear bag on the shop shelf that contained the very familiar green plastic moulded soldiers, that played such a dominant role in my own childhood.

I cannot tell you of the twinge of joy that surged through me when I saw them on the shelf, and just for a moment, I was transported back to those days lying on my bedroom floor, my soldiers lined up in rank, and ready to commit to the battle that would send my green clad army of heroes against those devilishly bad grey clad baddies. I think for a moment my son thought I had gone quite insane, and he looked at me with somewhat of a very odd expression, and it was then that I realised.

I am the last of my generation, my brother who was four years my junior was the first of a new breed of children, who did not lie around with soldiers and cowboys or action men, he was the first of a generation that was introduced to the technical age, and he probably feels the same about his beloved Sinclair Spectrum, the first of a long line of computer aided games.

A fond memory from my childhood

A fond memory from my childhood

I still have all my cowboys… its mad really to think about it, but I have no will at all to part with them, I have the fort, the train, the wagons and stage coaches, all the Indians and a mass of cowboys, as well as a whole host of other western related accessories all packed neatly away and stored in my loft. They mean the world to me, even now at the grand old age of 49 they are one of my most precious possessions. Its not because they have value as most would think, I don’t care that I could put them on Ebay and make a fortune selling them, I care and love them simply because when I was just four years old, my Grandfather took me to the shop and bought me my very first one. He did it because I had helped out in the garden and been very well behaved that week, and he bought me Sitting Bull an Native American chief, and in my eyes at that time the coolest one in the entire glass case. I got one each week after that, and over the years my collection grew until it was huge and I reached my teenage years. Today as I write I smile at the memory of those times alone with them and the happiness they brought me, and In many ways it just adds to the feeling that when I leave this world, all my experiences of my time here will leave with me, just as those who have gone before me have.

I grew up surrounded by cowboys and warfare; most of the films I watched were of World War Two, and the epic adventurous of the Wild West, I suppose they were the two most influential aspects of several generations before me, simply due to the fact that the war was an experience most people I knew had lived through. Times have changed and things have moved on, and like those who came after me, for them their experience is somewhat different.

World War Two had a massive impact on the world, and it influenced a great many aspects of the lives of everyone for over three decades after it had happened, my parents grew up listening to the air raid sirens and hearing the hum of planes in the darkened skies at night, they lived through a time of poverty that we can never really understand in these affluent times of today, the centre of their households was not a television, it was a radio, a simple voice informing them of what was happening in the world around them, and life for them was a daily struggle to survive. Its easy to bitch and whine these days about how tough things are for us all with our Flat screen TVs and laptops, whilst stuffing a burger down our throats, but we will never understand the struggle and hardships they suffered on a day to day basis, and in a way I think it is sad that my son does not have that chance to talk and communicate with people who lived through such a traumatic time, for I believe there was a great deal I learned for the older generations in my youth, and sadly most of them have passed on, and that advice and information on that particular way of life is gone forever.

I once had the privilege of being a part of a very wonderful old mans life. Doug was the father of my ex partner, and when I knew him he was in his eighties, he was a very special person and I must admit I was deeply fond of him. I visited him every day, and over time we became very close, he was a member of the British Expeditionary Force that landed in France during the war, and he was more importantly, a survivor of Dunkirk. He spoke very little during his life of his experience of that beach and the horrors he saw, but over my time with him, he began to share more and more of what it was like. His daughter was very surprised, as in all her life she had never heard him talk so openly of Dunkirk, I am not sure why he chose me, but I felt a deep privilege that he did.

I am so lucky, because he opened up a window on a piece of pure history from this nation, unlike my history books, not only did I have the chance to hear a first hand account of that time, I also had the golden opportunity to ask questions. I talked a great deal with Doug towards the end of his life, I saw the horror in his eyes as he described in very graphic detail what he saw as he sat on the sand whilst the enemy forces cut down his friends as they crossed the beaches in their aircraft, I shared his tears and felt his pain.

I had thought of filming or taping it, but such was the sense of honour that he bestowed upon me, I thought I would have been wrong to include a device into what was a very private and personal moment, as he told me things he had never shared with his own son and daughters.

Doug was without doubt a person I admired and deeply respected, the sadness I felt when he passed away was deep and painful, and I do miss him and often my thoughts are with him. The sad thing is that with his passing a very unique chanced left us forever, the chance to look back and see through the eyes of one who witnessed everything, it is something I feel today’s younger generations are being deprived of. I used to laugh and tell him he belonged in a school, but it was no joke, he had an account of pure truth that would have greatly enhanced any classroom, and sadly we have a country filled with such special opportunities that is passing us by, as we have countless generations of memories and experiences leaving us every year.

My Own grandfather once told me, we must learn from the past, to ignore what has been before us is at our peril, I think in the later part of my life I really am starting to understand him better, and it has become a theme I often visit in my own fictional writing, for there is great wisdom in those words.

Here in the UK we dismiss our elderly, we push them out of the family and place them in sheltered accommodation or nursing homes. I feel there is an attitude of lets get them out of the way, as we do not have time to fuss, and we need to get on with more important things like working overtime or going into our online lives. We are one culture who ignores the wisdom of the past, I think looking at current events it is very obvious those important insights shared by people like Doug are ignored and labelled irrelevant, but if I had honestly recorded him as he wept and spoke of those times that filled him with horror, and brought out such desperation in him as he wanted to live and not die there in the sand, I think anyone who heard them, would have a very different view of whether or not we should use armed troops to handle every problem. Doug was a lover of life, even after being involved in combat, and taking away the life of another in defence of his country, his experience had taught him that combat was not and never going to be the answer, I can only wonder at this time how many other soldiers returning in today’s conflict situations feel the same way.

Doug is just one example of one kind of event, and I do wonder how many other important aspects of life we are missing out on? Everyday discoveries are made that inform us of yet another fraction of Celtic or Anglo Saxon life, because there are very few recorded moments from that time to teach us from the past, I look at the internet and the endless streams of garbage it holds, do we really care or need to record the sex lives of celebrities, is it really very relevant to the future of our race how many drugs they take or how many women they sleep with in one night? Who really has the time to honestly say it has interrupted their day, I know I don’t. I honestly do not give a hoot what a famous celebrity does, if that is what they feel they need, bugger em and let them get on with it, I care about people like Doug, or my Father who again has so much to offer from the life he has lived.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could record people like Doug, actually get their own words down on paper, or even better get it up on the Internet and put something worth reading online, surely that should be an important goal, to actually start logging our history as we make it. I know there are a lot of people out there who do; blogging for one thing has grown huge over the last ten years, I know as I read a huge amount of it. I think it is the best thing any of us can do, take what we have experienced and find a way of putting it online, I am trying at the moment to convince my father to share what he has done and learned during his busy and active life, he has so much to offer and I think he should speak out for his generation and share it with those who will never have the chance to witness what he has survived.

My Grandfather was right, we do need to start paying more attention to the past, I think now more than ever before we need to look back and learn from the mistakes we have made. As a race we do need to share what we know and pool it for the good of everyone, because there may come a day when we need it. I have shared my life and the conversations and experiences I have witnessed within my writing. My stories albeit the fantasy stories of Heirs to the Kingdom, have a very solid platform of truth and experience hidden beneath them, but the wisdom of that firm foundation comes through, in some small way, it is the way I express myself and contribute to the voice of my generation, and maybe we should all think a little about how we can best speak out for our own.

The true celebrities of our culture must surely be those who have survived extraordinary events and witnessed the history of our race, and so instead of brushing them aside as none entities, let’s get them online and sharing real truths about real lives.

Let me know what you think in the comments box.

(In Memory of Sapper Douglas Pixton. A Dearly missed friend)

Taking Stock.

There comes a time in every man’s life, where it is time to stop and take stock of all you have done and achieved, for most men it is a single event that comes around forty, and it is an important moment as you look back at all you have done, and with a little hope the picture is pretty good.

I have done it a few times in my life; I often think that was due to the fact that I had to change direction often, as deep inside me there were important changes going on brought on by changes in my life. My first break up from a long term relationship, losing my job after 12 years of hard grafting loyalty, fighting a council to save my business, all of them exacted huge changes that made me stand up and take notice, and forced me to drastically alter the way I lived. Within the past two years two events again have made me sit and focus on what is important in this life we live, and I feel it poses as many questions as it answers.

I think most of us take Nature for granted, and I think within that lies a note of caution, because Nature holds all of us within a delicate balance, something brought home to me in the hardest possible lesson recently as I watched my first daughter suffer, it was a reminder that had been served to me a year earlier as I watched my father struggle when he nursed my Step Mother back to health, and from those hard and painful times, I have started to understand the true value of the gift we all call life.

A recent survey I read (Which I cannot find the link to. If I do I will add it later) listed the five biggest regrets men had on their deathbeds, and one that struck me whilst reading, was the high proportion of men who wished they had not worked so much. I think it resonated so deeply within me, because in the childhood of my first daughter I worked at large Garden Centre, and the job which I loved took me out of the home at weekends and holidays, and also involved almost dawn till dusk working hours, as a result I missed all of those important moments watching her grow up. The sad thing was it wasn’t even worth it, I worked so hard and was without doubt one of the most loyal members of staff, but when it came down to the line, the owner let me go simply to save money in a budget cut, where he kept on the cheaper members of staff. OK in the long run he lost out, after all I was the one who brought in the sales, and to a large degree could justify my long working hours with my wage, but it hit me hard at the time, and it knocked me flat on my face for a long time after. I vowed then I would not work for another employer again, and began to set up my own business.

I learned an important lesson, one which I was lucky to get earlier in life than most other men, and when by what I see as a miracle, I became a father again later in life, I knew I was not going to pass up the chance of a lifetime to enjoy the life of my new child. Today I write from home, the money as a writer is not great, I do not live as well in comparison to my days working in a large Garden Centre, but I am surrounded by my family, and even though it is a struggle at times and I do worry about what happens if my books do not sell, I still think by comparison I am a lot happier than I was back then. It does pose the quality versus quantity argument as to which approach is best, and yet being by my wife’s side and enjoying the freedom to take my children out and watch them as they excitedly investigate the world around them, for me is something of extra special value, as I now want my time here with all of them to count.

As most of you know I love Celt culture and tradition, and one thing in particular that I am reminded of at the moment, is how they believed you should honour your ancestors and all who have been before you. To the Celts, it is the sum total of each member down your family line that has brought you to this point in your life, it is a profound thought when you sit and think of the lives of your family dating back through each generation, In a way I think it is a very important point that most of us have forgotten.  In heirs to the Kingdom I used the phrase, when I leave this realm, I will sit in a place of honour at my father’s table, it is a reference to this the oldest of Celt traditions and it is something that is a deep part of my own personal beliefs. Again it poses the question of when I finally leave this realm, what will make me worthy enough to earn my place at the table?

I know a few people who have worked hard all their lives, and in many cases they have built themselves up quite a business or small empire to show the world the worthiness of their achievements, and you cannot react in any other way than to admire the courage and determination they have shown in achieving such a feat. But at the moment I do question whether or not it was worth the sacrifice and effort, because I can only ask what will happen when they are finally gone? The cost they pay to achieve such a thing is very high indeed, and in most cases behind every successful business man, is a divorce or unfulfilled wife, and children who really do not know who their father truly is a person, it feels like a heavy price to pay for success to me.

History teaches us that all empires fall, so is it even worth building one in the first place? That at the moment is a question I have no answer to. Something that I think about and is important to me is the example set by my father. His father died when he was a small boy, and I often think of how my father worked his way up in his job to finally reach the top position, it was not an easy journey as he began at the bottom. Along the way he earned a great deal of respect, due mainly to his even handedness of those he managed. He spent a great deal of his free time in the Mountain Rescue, again playing his role as a team member saving the lives of a great many people. Is his father sat in another realm watching with pride? I would say a very resounding yes; my father has indeed earned his place at the table, because even when he is no longer with us, as a result of his life, other lives have been touched and changed by the way he lived.  As you can probably imagine I am very proud to be his son, and I can only hope that one day I will measure up to him, and all that have been before me, and take my own seat at the table that is the legacy of my family line.

I have lived quite an unconventional life, I am a natural rebel and I have lived a life without too much planning, taking in the moment and trying to make the best of it. I have always felt we place far too much emphasis on money and possessions and how everything appears to others, we are indoctrinated from when we are small children as to what is and is not acceptable, and yet those who teach us these so called important rules for life, disregard them completely and are usually the ones who obsess over money and gather great possessions, whilst breaking every rule ever set for what is deemed to be acceptable moral or otherwise. It is their way to control us, and I think today we are seeing that clearer and clearer as we watch corrupt governments and religious leaders lie and cheat to gain power and wealth for themselves, and the banks and business grow ever larger under the rule of their fat cat owners, as inequality and injustice are heaped upon the rest of us, so why should we live our lives at their benefit? The world has become obsessed with celebrity culture and the material gains they flaunt, I mean lets be honest why does the sex life of a celebrity really matter? Who cares if they have had an affair or slept with ten people in one night, I mean really does it matter that much in the scheme of things that they spent ten million on a marriage that lasted only fifty days? Focus on your own sex life and enjoying it, and make yours the one marriage that no matter what trials you have, it works.

Is it not more important to live as feels right for us?

Shouldn’t we all live in a way that honours those who came before us? I think it is time for change, and it should start by all of us taking stock of who we are, and what is more important to us. For myself, it is important that I leave something behind that my children and wife will never forget, it is also important that I earn the respect of my father and earn my place at his table. I am lucky I am a published author, I will leave something behind, my words will remain on file in the central library of the UK forever and so future generations of mine will be able to read the words I have written and share in my world, for my books do contain my life and my feeling and thoughts, even if they are written in a way that is encrypted to the rest of the world. More importantly I want my children to hold the respect for me that I hold for my father, that is the legacy I want to leave them, I want the memories to be of happiness as they remember how I introduced them to Nature and showed them how to use the tools we have to create and build things, and also to remember the lessons I learned in life to aid them and prevent them making the same endless mistakes I have. I want them to live free of thought, and not shackled by the rules of the institutions that have crept into this world and dominated opinion for generation after generation.

The one thing I am very proud of is my thirty year role around plants. I have sown millions of seeds, taking hundreds of thousands of cuttings, and travelled this country selling them on cheaply to people who have taken them home to plant and grow on with care. As I look out of my window across the woodland and wild fields, I can see countless trees that have been planted by me, some of which are now growing into early maturity. I have collected and scatted millions of wild flower seeds across this land, and helped revive some flagging varieties by reintroducing them back into the wild, and I have fought and campaigned to save trees all around the world, so when my moment comes to walk out of this world into another one, I will know I am leaving it a little more beautiful than when I came into it. That is one thing I am immensely proud of, and even though no one will ever truly know the extent of my life with plants, I have left something behind me which with hope will remain as a marker to my life for many years to come.

Be UniqueThe one thing I have learned more than anything else in the past 18 months is that life is precious, and it should be lived to its fullest. It is so unimportant what others think, being true to yourself and living every moment is far more important, because we really do not know when Nature will slip and the balance will change. The media is filled with endless opinion on what is and is not acceptable, but the daft thing is, it is only at that moment of time that it appears relevant, all the shocks and scandals we see blow over in days as the news rolls ever on, and it is the same of life, none of it really matters, but your family and its past heritage will, so honour it and those around you, by being true to yourself. It does not matter how you live, what is really important is that you live it well.

The Celts believed: Respect all of nature and every living soul. Live your life to its fullest, and hurt none. It is a ten thousand year old piece of advice, and to be honest, it is still the best piece of advice I have ever read.